Update

A few days ago, I was mostly dead. As you know, "there's a big difference between mostly dead and all dead. Mostly dead is slightly alive." {Don't you just love when movie quotes apply to real life?} At times in the last few days, I've thought that letting go of that slightly alive part would be easier, but I guess I still have things to accomplish on this earth because I'm still kicking.

I was so weak, sick, in pain, and practically helpless that I had to ask someone to drive me down the hospital to have my blood taken. I've had people watch my boys, cook meals, and even help me walk back to bed. I've slept most of the day and not felt rested. I've eaten soup, Pedialyte, and water, only to stay alive, because nothing has sounded appetizing. I just didn't want to add dehydration to my list of symptoms, especially since I've lost 5 pounds in less than a week.

After pretty much feeling like I hit rock bottom on Wednesday, my family rallied--again--and my sister flew down to help bring me back from the mostly dead state I was in.

Luckily, the fever subsided. My strength has started to return. I actually felt like eating dinner--other than soup--tonight. I even got a few positive results back from the blood work I had done on Wednesday. My white blood count (WBC) must be at least 4.0 in order to have chemo. I'm at 2.7, which is up enough for my doctor to be hopeful. My Absolute Neutrophil Count {ANC} was at 1.0, which is the minimum needed for chemo. The original results were WBC at 0.9 and ANC at 0.2. Yes, ZERO point nine and ZERO point two. See what I mean about mostly dead? The WBC came up enough that I get another shot at a higher result by having stat labs taken on Monday. There's still a chance that I can have chemo next week. So, all of you who forgot to pray for me, you still have time to make up for it!

All I can do now is continue to rest, NOT get to go on our planned trip to the beach with the rest of the family, NOT each fresh fruit and vegetables, and pray that my slightly alive part continues to dominate. Let's hope for a miracle in order to get off this roller coaster as soon as possible.